Nerves...

I think that this week may never end!!!  I am just a bundle of nerves waiting to see if baby Wilson is doing ok in there. But on the flip side I'm so happy to be pregnant again and I know that could all end on Friday, so a good part of me never wants Friday to get here. I just want to keep living in my happy land. 

According to the IVF due date calendar I'm 6 weeks 2 days today.  Still not much to report on the symptoms front. Just extra gaggy, with a little bit of nausea and tired. I am so thankful for every day with this baby and I pray that he or she gets to live a long life and die old and gray in their sleep after I am long gone (in a perfect world, right?). I know that Gods ways are not ours and I don't know what the future holds but I feel like (when I stop and listen) God just keeps speaking to my heart, "I've got this."  Not in a, everything's going to be fine and you will have a happy, healthy baby, kind of way. But more in a He is going to take care of me no matter what happens, kind of way. So I am trying to capture those anxious thoughts and surrender my heart to Jesus, because I know He can take care of it. But it is not easy. And I am far from good at it. Just a big ole work in progress I guess. 

In other news I have now had to give myself my progesterone shot for the second time this cycle!!! Ekk! Those needles are big and it is ackward trying to twist and give yourself a shot in the hip. I had to laugh the first time it happened because my sister was over and she sweetly said, "I'd really like to help you, but I can't" and then proceeded to hide in the living room until I was done. Lol. I could never ask anyone to give me a shot, it's just too much to ask.  Ryan usually does it for me every night and he's really good at it and it rarely hurts. But law enforcement is a rough job and criminals never seem to sleep, therefore he's had a lot of overtime. And twice now it's resulted in me dosing myself up! Ha! However, I always feel like I can take on the world when I'm done!!! :-). So watch out everyone, I'm hormonal AND I can give myself injections!!